Family. Friends. Fishing. Fire pits. Floating. Fireworks. Firsts. Five crowns. Fast cars. Fun times.
- to be continued
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I can offer no explanation as to where I have been.
death. disease. drama. it has honestly all been too much. As the years pass, the circle gets smaller. Family - immediate, extended, adopted - first priority. True friends become more clear. Late August steam has set in on the east coast. We enjoyed a recent thick summer night at the beach - swinging in the chairs - enjoying conversation with family. The conversation flowed easily - as Lionel would say like Sunday mornings - 2020, friendships, pandemic, politics, education, careers, and death. There was no shortage of topics. We discussed the dreams I have had about family that has passed. I shared them - read aloud - without tears. I true feat as I am a highly emotional reader - speaker. Anytime attention is on me quite frankly. I Know She Was With Me October 15, 2020 The setting was Lynn and Steve’s house. I was racing back from somewhere, feeling devastated that I had come to the realization that Mom-Mom had passed. Defeated. Deflated. Aunt Lynn was vacuuming the ceiling - I recall seeing an extension cord plugged into the wall high; she would have needed a ladder to plug it in. I went to the basement and Mom-Mom was there. No details, just a mirage of her. I asked if she had visited me and described clothing. She said it wasn’t her, but she is here now. Notes: I am confused by this dream, but feeling overwhelmed with emotion. I know she came to me last night. Was she crocheting in the dream? I get glimpses of what I think I saw, but it was rather fuzzy. Yet one thing is certain - she was with me last night. I love you and miss you. This week marks 14 years without Pop-Pop and 3 without you. As I cleared my throat and took in the reaction of our circle - the reality hit me that I miss writing. I miss sharing. and so I hope to continue to work on writing. -writer in training with a story to tell |
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AuthorTraci, a wife, mother of two boys, Special Education teacher, and sole proprietor of Eco Alternatives LLC. Archives
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